If you feel like you are drowning in guilt, self-blame, and an endless loop of “what ifs" after making the heartbreaking decision to end a wanted pregnancy, this episode is for you. Sabrina Fletcher, the TFMR -Termination For Medical Reasons- pregnancy loss doula, explores why these feelings show up and how they’re rooted in deep love, your desire …

This week, motherhood is put under the spotlight but Lauren and Stacey are in two very different places. Lauren's instinct reveals a sad truth about Jimmy - but is she about to receive the support she'll need or is she really on her own? Meanwhile, The Slaters are splintered as Stacey's grief threatens to tear them apart. Will a break help to heal?…

On forgiveness and forgiving yourself after TFMR baby loss with Amy Watson. Amy is a certified Life Coach and also a mom who has walked through stillbirth, miscarriage and pregnancy after loss. You may know her from her podcast, Smooth Stones, Find Yourself After Miscarriage, Stillbirth and Baby Loss. Connect with Amy at: Learn more at https://smoo…

This week, Jean's heart is broken as Cindy reveals Kathy and Harvey's affair in typically dramatic style - but how does she pick up the pieces and how much future do Kathy and Harvey really have? Elsewhere, Suki steps up as Avani pours her heart out and Cindy has a new business under her clutches!

This week, Joel's motives became worryingly clear and Avani is in a lot of danger. How do Ross and Vicki parent a brainwashed boy? Meanwhile, Cindy is back and she has revenge on her mind - but will the arrival of baby Jimmy give her a new ally in Lauren? Elsewhere, Nigel is stuck in the past as V.E Day brings back memories and Harry discovers how …

This week, Nicola's past comes back to haunt her as Shireen's body is found! Yes, she's actually dead. And Harry does not react well to the news. Meanwhile, has a story that Rob has been wanted for so long finally come to pass? Joel is definitely a wrong un....and he has Avani in his sights. Elsewhere Johnny tells Felix his true feelings...but is i…

This week Phil realises it's time to step up as Nigel's condition begins to affect his day to day life - but will he be able to provide Nigel with the help he needs? Elsewhere, there's trouble to come in Paradise as Teddy discovers the truth about Shireen, but is she really dead? Meanwhile, Kojo wants independence and a lovely friendship develops w…

This week, it's the end of an era as Sonia, Bianca and Bex set sail for Bali - and her house now has brand new residents! Elsewhere, Nicola's vendetta to keep Zack and Barney apart takes a twisted turn, Avani takes a big step forwards and how much longer can Nigel hope to keep his condition private?

Lacey Castilleja Fisher, Licensed Professional Counselor, Play Therapist Perinatal Mental Health-Certification, talks about how sand tray therapy can help you through the trauma of TFMR baby loss. Lacey runs Open Heart Counseling of Austin, TX and we also talk about the state of perinatal mental health support in Texas. Connect with Lacey at: www.o…

This week, we say goodbye to our favourite fruit and veg man as Martin Fowler is finally laid to rest - but resentment and grief continues to consume those he left behind. Elsewhere, Bianca and Sonia come to blows when Bianca's interview about "The Coma Killer" comes to light - can the sisters put this behind them? And Vicki and co look to be remai…

This week, a new group of characters arrive from Down Under - in the shape of Vicki Fowler, her new partner Ross and his son Joel - and immediatly start causing headaches for Sharon. So what secrets have they brought with them and just what has young Joel been up to? Elsewhere, Kathy confesses her crimes to Peter and Lauren, but where the hell is C…

This week, Avani is forced into a humiliating situation and it looks set to send her into freewill - but can Ravi and Priya join forces to save her? Meanwhile, Phil attempts to return to life back in the square, but Nigel's loose tongue sets him back. Elsewhere, Linda's back in the dating game and Felix gets some screen time!…

This week, Phil's time in the Mental Health Unit is put under the spotlight - can he bring himself out of the depths of despair? Elsewhere - revelations aplenty as we discover the truth behind the disappearance of Harry Mitchell's ex - or do we? Meanwhile, Jean and Kathy make Harvey feel uneasy and Nigel needs support.…

This week, Nicola and Sharon's feud exploded and revelations and punches flew - but just how dangerous is Teddy Mitchell and what exactly happened to Shireen Bashar? Meanwhile, the identity of Tommy's online friend is revealed - what exactly could soaps say about A.I in our lives? Elsewhere, Bianca and Sonia say a firm goodbye to Reiss and a brand …

This week, Zack is given the shock of his life as his history with Nicola comes back to haunt him in a shocking way - but how will everyone involved hide their secrets and what explosions are coming on the horizon? Meanwhile, Tommy returns home and it seems a much darker figure may be hiding in the shadows. Elsewhere, Harvey is put out in the cold …

This week, Albert Square wakes up to a heartbreaking new era as life without Martin Fowler begins. Grief is everywhere you look, but will Ruby and Stacey ever be able to live with each other's role in Martin's life? Meanwhile, Grant has quite the week as he finds himself back in the arms of an old flame - but how long before people get burnt? Elsew…

This week, it's the big one. As EastEnders finally turns 40, hearts around the country are broken - Birth, death, acceptance, resolutions and one humdinger of a tragedy that really will change Walford forever - but how does Albert Square move on from the events of this week? Thank you so much for all your voice notes, comments and for watching. It …

This week, Phil takes a heartbreaking look at its past as he tries to land on what made him the man he is today - and it's not a pretty picture. Will the return of his brother finally pull him out of his pit of despair? Elsewhere, Reiss' secrets are out but what could his downfall bring to square as the anniversary draws closer? Meanwhile, there's …

Communication ideas for romantic, heterosexual couples after/through baby loss. Laura Amador, a Laura Doyle certified relationship coach shares 3 insightful ways to take care of your grief and bring you closer to your partner. You can find the guide "5 Steps to Reignite Connection in Your Marriage" that Laura Amador mentions in the episode here: ht…

This week, Phil's downward spiral reaches a heartbreaking point as he attempts to end everything - but just who can bring up from the point of no return? Meanwhile, Denise and Ravi go public, although no entirely through choice - where are you at with who Denise should choose? Elsewhere, Cindy's finger of suspicion lands on someone else and could R…

This week, the whodunnit threw up a shovel load of mad theories for us to delve over - but those closest to Cindy are at each other's throats as much as her's. Meanwhile, Nigel turns down a potential new love interest and Phil's story looks set to change everything. Elsewhere, Denise and Ravi search for privacy and Sonia may be about to trumpet the…

This week, Sonia's fate is revealed but it seems Bianca's prison sentence is only just beginning. Elsewhere, the suspects of Cindy's attack all get that little bit more suspicious, Ruby goes into battle and Phil is heading towards rock bottom.

This week, Cindy is a victim on the edge as someone seems to have further torment for her in their sights...but should she be looking far closer to home? Meanwhile, we finally see the returns of both Bianca and Sonia and neither's situation looks to be improving any time soon. Elsewhere, another blonde Mitchell bites the dust and Stacey's Baps look…

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This week, Nigel confides in Yolanda and reveals a heartbreaking future for himself - but how much longer can he hide the truth from those around him? Meanwhile, Denise will soon have to make a choice...and so will we. Elsewhere, Reiss prepares for Sonia's trial and accusations continue to fly as Cindy opens her eyes....…

Happy New Year EastEnders fans! This week, Nish's final days played out and it left the Panesar family in pieces as his reign of terror finally came to a close - so how do the family pick themselves up? Meanwhile, Nigel's story looks to be heading in a very sad direction, Stacey and Martin hit a Ruby sized bump in the road and Kathy faces questions…

This week, Christmas brought revelations, fights, breakups and a rather large and hard shovel to Cindy - but, the big question now is...Whodunnit??? Elsewhere, love is in the air as Ravi and Denise take a step towards a relationship, but can Ravi be trusted? Meanwhile, Yolande rediscovers her faith and there's a familiar face back on the square - b…

This week, we are just days before Christmas and a confession has fallen into very much the wrong hands - but just what will Elaine do with Cindy's biggest secret? Meanwhile, Linda has a horrifying vision of her future, but is rehab going to solve all her problems? Elsewhere, Denise says too much and are Martin and Ruby about to reconnect?…

This week, Linda falls further than ever before and her family are left to pick up the pieces - but is she finally ready to accept help or is Linda Carter about to meet her maker? Meanwhile, the spectre of addiction spreads around the square as Lauren and Phil continue their own private battles. Elsewhere, there's a surprise return as Mickey Pierce…

This week, Nish is back and badder than ever - but what will his final days bring to Suki and Eve? Meanwhile, the walls are closing in on Cindy and Junior - How big an explosion is coming to the woman who so many men are addicted to? Elsewhere, Jean's money problems worsen, Teddy and Sharon lock lips and Nicola is watching their every move...…

"I was searching for a community where I could talk to people without feeling judged. A safe space where I didn't have to explain myself." -Amanda, TFMR for rare genetic condition mom shares her story of her time in our Ascend TFMR Grief Circle program. Listen in to hear her TFMR story and how she moved from feeling blame and silenced to fully held…

This week, wedding bells are in the air - and Cindy's lies lead to a downfall...literally. Meanwhile, Lauren turns to desperate measures, but how far are her addictions issues about to go? Elsewhere, a spark is reignited between Denise and Ravi and Jean realises that she has been the victim of a scam - but is it going to push Harvey and Kathy close…

This week, a heavily mascaraed face from Elaine's past comes back to haunt her and Linda learns some heavily guarded secrets. The wedding of George and Elaine approaches, but will it go without a hitch? We doubt it. Meanwhile, Ruby is back and Martin finds himself with child - but what chaos is his ex about to bring into his life? Elsewhere, Lauren…

This week, a fiery new Mitchell lady arrived in the form of Nicola - but what chaos is she about to bring to Teddy's door? And what exactly is her history with Zack Meanwhile, Bernie's back with a vengeance, Linda's back on the bottle and could Cindy and Junior get back together?

In this episode you’ll hear about 3 big hurtful myths/misconceptions about TFMR & how we can take healing into our own hands in the face of so much misunderstanding about our heartbreaking choices. 00:00-Intro 01:56-Myth 1, looking for a perfect pregnancy 04:59-Myth 2, taking the easy way out 14:24-Myth 3, it's just an abortion or it's not really a…

This week, Reiss is in free fall and Bianca finds herself chained and bound. But how long before Reiss' secrets overtake him? Meanwhile Kalfie are back together! But is it going to be happy ever after when Tommy finds out? Meanwhile, Harry turns up the heat on Jack and how far will Penny go to punish Daddy dearest?…

Tenae Bascherini, pelvic floor and core specialist, shares about the layers of emotional and physical recovery after TFMR. She went through termination for medical reasons herself with her son Kaleo, in the second trimester of pregnancy. We talk about some surprising and seemingly “unrelated to the pelvis” areas of the body where a pelvic floor imb…

This week, Nish's time may well be up...or is it? It also seems the Six story has finally reached its conclusion - but are the ladies really free of Christmas Day? Meanwhile, Kathy and Harvey lock lips, Jean and Kat lock horns and is the market soon to be locked up?

We're back! This week, Tommy's violence reaches terrifying new peaks - but when will Kat accept the truth? Meanwhile, a war is started as the Panesars and Mitchells butt heads - but how far will it go before there are casualties?

After Ali Emerald lost her baby Paris to TFMR for maternal reasons, she went on to become a somatic embodiment coach to help herself and others work through trauma and grief. Ali’s pregnancy set in motion conditions that led her to need an organ transplant. In this episode we talk about the intersection between disability rights and reproductive ju…

This week, David's return sends ripples around the Square as long forgotten loves and feuds are unearthed...But has Cindy singing like a canary begun her undoing? Meanwhile, Tommy's behaviour takes a darker turn and are Denise and Jack about to reconcile?

Erica Rozmid, board certified behavioral psychologist and perinatal mental health certified, also known as TFMR Psychologist on her platforms, shares doable tips for when you are in mental health crisis after TFMR. The skills she generously relays in this episode are just a piece of what she's putting together in a mental health course for those wh…

This week, Bianca's behaviour grows more erratic and there is seemingly only one man to pick her up off the ground...But is David Wicks about to be confronted with ghosts of his own? Meanwhile, Yolande's quest for justice is cut short - was this the right decision for the story? Elsewhere, Tommy grows more sinister and Reiss finds himself cut off.…

This week, the Panesar drama reached a climax as Nish began his demented revenge on his family - but what will his final days bring for those that have wronged him? Meanwhile, Reiss has a new roommate as Bianca is back on the square and she wants to bring him down. And Chris Clenshaw is stepping down next year! But what will the Wadey era bring us?…

Today we have Dr. E Goldblatt Hyatt on the podcast with us. They are an associate professor at Rutgers University in New Jersey. Dr. Goldblatt Hyatt is also a private practice clinician focusing on baby loss and TFMR. We'll be talking about their research on TFMR and queer family making. ... Today's episode is sponsored by: "A way through After TFM…

This week, we lost one of the good ones as a betrayed Bobby left Albert Square. He leaves resentment behind - How will Freddie and Anna cope with their guilt, and what is Cindy's next move? Meanwhile Vinnie's birthday leaves Nish feeling vengeful, Reiss find his problems building and Avani may be about to enter a very dark and murky world...…

This week, it's Bad Girls - EastEnders style. There's a glam lady at the top of the food chain in Walford Prison...and it ain't Sharon. Meanwhile, Anna makes a scary discovery and Elaine and Linda have a heart to heart. AND there are plans for the 40th! EastEnders is going LIVE - and we have a say!

“How will I know when I’m ready to share my TFMR story and where and how should I share it?” We go into when and how and where you could decide to tell or NOT tell your story of ending your precious pregnancy for health reasons in this episode. SPONSORED BY THE TFMR GRIEF CIRCLE PROGRAM, ASCEND: If you are a bereaved TFMR parent looking for group g…

This week, the Six storyline seems to arrive at its ultimate conclusion - But what next? Will Bernie keep quiet? How long till the police return to Linda? And what of Sharon's new neighbour....?

This week, all hell breaks loose at Peggy's as Chelsea and Penny's rivalry results in a life threatening situation - but what will the ramifications be? Meanwhile, George meets his brothers, but is he ready for what they will bring him? Elsewhere, the Six's trial approaches and Bernie's vendetta takes a turn...…