The Boy Who Never Smiled (feat. Chaim Gutleizer) Neshamos.org Podcast: Stories Of Hope And Healing podcast

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This episode contains discussions of bullying, suicidal ideation, substance abuse, and loss. ⚠️Listener discretion is advised. In this powerful episode of the Neshamos Podcast, Azriel Boymelgreen shares his raw and unfiltered journey through antisemitic bullying, isolation, substance abuse, and the lasting scars of loss. What begins as a story of deep pain and alienation transforms into one of resilience, spiritual growth, and a commitment to help others. Azriel opens up about the pivotal moments that led him from despair to healing, from life-changing therapy to rediscovering meaning through faith and community. He also discusses the creation of The Bereishis Foundation, a nonprofit organization that empowers child wellness by helping families afford therapy for children struggling with mental health challenges. The foundation provides direct financial assistance for therapy costs, allowing parents to choose their preferred licensed therapist. This episode is longer and more intense than most. A deeply personal conversation about struggle, recovery, and the courage to speak the unspeakable.…

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Breaking the Cycle (feat. Chana Leah Bleznick) 1:31:23

20 days ago1:31:23

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In this poignant episode of the Neshamos Podcast, Chana Leah Bleznick shares her transformative journey from a turbulent childhood to becoming a beacon of hope and advocacy for women in Crown Heights. Having emerged from the shadows of multi-generational addiction and rage, Chana Leah found healing and direction through 12-step recovery. She reflects candidly on her college years, early struggles in marriage, and the pivotal moments that shaped her resilience and stability. Through themes of self-responsibility, female mentorship, and the courage to speak openly, she highlights the power of story to dismantle shame and secrecy. Her testimony is a moving reminder of the strength that can be found in community and spirituality.…

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Escaping the Abyss: A Postpartum Struggle 53:47

27 days ago53:47

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In this powerful episode of the Neshamos podcast, Hindy Rechaval shares her personal experience of navigating postpartum psychosis. Raised in a Chaseedish home and later joins the Chabad community in Crown Heights, Hindy opens up about the cultural pressures that shaped her sense of self-worth, and how everything unraveled after the birth of her first child. What began as sleepless nights and racing thoughts spiraled into full-blown psychosis, hospitalization, and a long, painful period of overmedication. Finally, with the support of her husband, family, and mental health professionals, Hindy began to rebuild. Now, she’s using her experience to break the silence around maternal mental health. She speaks about the power of gratitude, the strength of community, and her mission to support other women facing similar struggles, all while learning to hold space for both her dreams and her reality.…

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Fitting In, Falling Out (feat. Shlomo Wolf) 1:27:24

11 weeks ago1:27:24

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In this honest and emotional episode, Shlomo Wolf shares his journey through anxiety, addiction, and self-discovery. Raised across different countries, always the “new kid,” Shlomo learned early on to survive by reading people and fitting in—often at the cost of his own needs. When weed entered his life, it felt like relief—a break from constant alertness and self-judgment. But beneath the addiction was something deeper: a belief that he only mattered if he was useful, helpful, or liked. Shlomo reflects on what it means to finally stop performing and begin healing—not just from substance use, but from years of codependency and self-erasure.…

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Reclaiming Life Step by Step (feat. Bruryah Silverstein) 1:01:29

12 weeks ago1:01:29

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Bruyah’s journey through trauma has completely changed the way she sees life, resilience, and healing. After her devastating accident, when she was told she was partially paralyzed, she faced an incredibly long road to recovery—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. In this episode, Bruyah opens up about the raw emotions she felt, from the fear and uncertainty to the moments of inner strength that helped her keep going. She talks about how, even after overcoming huge obstacles, the smaller struggles of daily life can still feel overwhelming. Bruyah reflects on the importance of community, being kind to yourself, and the constant effort it takes to hold onto hope—even when there are no guarantees. Her story is one of perseverance, acceptance, and learning to find strength even in the face of the unknown. It’s a conversation that reminds us that healing isn’t just about surviving—it’s about truly learning how to live.…

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Space to Rebuild (feat. Yosef Halevy) 1:08:11

33 weeks ago1:08:11

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In this uplifting episode of the Neshamos podcast, Yosef Halevy, an accomplished entrepreneur and sports coach, shares his profound journey from a challenging upbringing marked by bullying and instability to building resilience and helping others. Yosef's story highlights how he found solace and strength in basketball, transforming his adversities into life lessons and meaningful projects. The conversation delves into Yosef's move to Israel for personal growth, the importance of being present, and practical advice on journaling and meditation for mental well-being. Join us for an inspiring discussion on the power of self-acceptance, community, and the ongoing journey of healing.…

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Twisted Parent (feat. Miriam Racquel Feldman) 1:11:33

1 year ago1:11:33

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In this deeply moving podcast episode, Miriam Raquel Feldman shares her family's emotional journey navigating her son's struggle with Pandas, a debilitating autoimmune disorder. With vulnerability and honesty, Miriam Raquel shares the heart-wrenching challenges they faced, from anxiety and depression to intrusive thoughts and paranoia. Within the darkness of their ordeal, Miriam Raquel and her husband exemplify unwavering love and dedication as they navigate uncharted territory. Through their son's pain and despair, they find strength in each other and in their commitment to a healing solution that aligns with their deepest values, even when conventional methods fall short. Miriam Raquel's story is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the boundless capacity of a parent's love. Join her as she offers a glimpse into their journey, filled with hope, faith, and the transformative power of a parents unconditional acceptance. To learn more about Miriam Racquel's work or to get in touch visit https://www.miriamracquel.com/…

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The Storm Before the Calm (feat. Mendy Fuchs) 1:27:24

2 years ago1:27:24

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Mendy's story starts as a chaotic storm, replete with neglect, shock, sexual abuse & addiction. Hear how life's challenges took him to the depths of addiction and despair, on the brink of losing everything and what ultimately led Mendy to learn to seek the help he needed. Mendy is sober now for over two years and lives a happy life in Israel together with his wife and four children. The Neshamos project is a charitable endeavor and relies solely on our generous donors for support. To sponsor this (or any) episode or for dedications please reach out to us via podcast@neshamos.org.…

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Without Pointing Fingers (feat. Estee Weingarten) 50:23

2 years ago50:23

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Meet Estee, a Montreal native who's now a young wife and mother of four in Brooklyn, NY. In this episode, Estee opens up about her journey living with her husband's debilitating anxiety. From being the “can-do” problem solver since childhood, she soon realized that she couldn’t “make it better” for everyone else around her anymore. The depths of her husbands emotional distress compelled her to seek out the help she deserved. Today, Estee prioritizes her well-being and develops compassionate empathy- no longer shouldering the responsibility of others’ emotional states. ” I didn't only have to be on the receiving end, but I also had to tell people exactly how I wanted them to support me.” Estee's transformation even led her to become a certified life coach, supporting women dealing with addiction and mental health challenges.…

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"Ta, I Need Help!" (feat. Mendy Schusterman) 54:36

2 years ago54:36

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Join us in this powerful episode of the Neshamos Podcast as we dive into Mendy Schusterman's remarkable journey. Raised in Peabody, Massachusetts, Mendy, at just 22 years old, has already experienced the depths of hopelessness and suffering that comes with alcohol addiction. With raw honesty, he shares the turning point that ignited his desire for change and led him on a path to recovery. As a full-time social work student at TUW University, and a senior student at Bais Menachem Wilkes Barre Yeshiva- Mendy now uses his personal experience to provide support and mentorship to younger students. In this episode, he shares his gripping story of overcoming alcoholism and finding a new path filled with hope and alignment. Don't miss this inspiring account of transformation and resilience.…

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Mastering Me (feat. Leah Banda) 44:24

3 years ago44:24

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Leah shares her experience of feeling lost, sad, and disassociated in her younger years, and struggling to just accept and be herself. She learned how to be okay with her feelings and open up to hope, connection, and life's blessings. She openly shares a part of herself on her Instagram page called Mastering Me, where she shares openly about her mental health, spirituality, struggles, and triumphs. Growing up she felt like every day was a fight, like the world was out to get her. She struggled with feelings of insecurity, self-doubt, and being less-than. By going to retreats and therapy, she has been able to heal and accept herself, be proud of herself, and motivate herself.…

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My Suffering Is My Choice (feat. Sarah Bennaroch) 46:26

3 years ago46:26

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Today, let’s voyage into the world of emotions. Meet Sarah Bennaroch - born in Los Angeles, she currently lives in Crown Heights, and is the founder and owner behind Gymies Gym. In this episode, Sarah divulges her history of combating an intense inner critic and facing disempowering narratives within herself; and these voices would invite feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt into her consciousness. Today, Sarah asserts herself to address what's going on within her, and has created a support system around her, because she knows that asking for help is courageous. This episode is a gift to us all, we hope you enjoy.…

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I’m 18, And I Have A Story To Tell (feat. Ephraim Sacho) 51:17

3 years ago51:17

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In this episode, we’re thrilled to welcome our youngest podcaster to date! Born and bred in Crown Heights, Ephraim Sacho is an 18 year old student, and currently attends Bais Menachem Yeshiva in the Poconos (Wilkes-Barre). In this episode, Ephraim illuminates us with his experience facing crippling anxiety, depression, and paranoia. These factors soon thrust him into his manic episode, and eventually a mental breakdown. Hear how Ephraim has battled with his internal demons, and fought for his birthright - a meaningful and joy-filled life. Today, Ephraim cultivates a lifestyle of health and stability, and emphasizes G-d as an essential point in his recovery.…

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I Fight for my Peace (feat. Dovid Zane Braslawsce) 1:15:05

3 years ago1:15:05

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“When it would happen, I would just see red.” Meet Dovid Zane Braslawsce. Born in “trucker-stop “ Beaver, Pennsylvania, Dovid was that child with unending energy. He was an explosive kid, expressive, untamed, and at times violent. In fact, at the ripe age of seven, he was sent to anger management classes that attempted to teach him how to regulate himself. “I would go blind” is how Dovid depicts these moments. “ I would feel a lot of shame after; but at the same time, I wasn't even so sure what had just happened!” Why did Dovid feel out of control? How did he learn to channel his boundless energy? And what about the shame and guilt that each outburst would torment him with? Fast forward to Dovid now. Dovid now resides in Crown Heights, New York, and devotes his time to his passion projects- G-d and martial arts! Currently, he runs a self defense and fitness training program for men and boys in Crown Heights, in which he is fortunate to practice and teach his healing on the daily. Be sure to check out @magenhamelekh to see him in action! Tune in below to hear Dovid’s journey of healing, awareness, faith, and growth. We hope you enjoy this episode.…

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Free from Obsession (feat. Yitzi Rabinowitz) 1:06:26

3 years ago1:06:26

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Meet Yitzy Rabinowitz. Yitzy was raised in Borough Park, and currently resides in Crown Heights, NY. In this episode, hear Yitzy’s heartfelt recount of his journey of healing from sex addiction and codependency. He demonstrates immense courage and bravery in speaking about the various factors that played into life story, and brought him to where he stands today.…

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Putting the Pieces Back Together (feat. Yossi Rodal) 57:59

5 years ago57:59

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Singer/Songwriter/Rabbi Yossi Rodal of Carlesbad, CA talks about losing his sister at the age of 12, struggling with the feelings of loss and grief, coming to the realization that he needed help to heal, and eventually embarking on the road toward healing and using his music as a tool toward that end.…

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The Boy Who Never Smiled (feat. Chaim Gutleizer) 44:43

5 years ago44:43

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“Growing up, I didn’t smile much.” Chaim Gutleizer’s story starts with that—and ends with him becoming the youngest person ever to become a certified grief recovery specialist. How did Chaim make this transition? As a survivor of bullying, Chaim spent years battling feelings of loneliness and unhappiness. After experiencing bullying at the hands of a teacher, Chaim left his elementary school and switched to Darchai Menachem, the first place where he enjoyed positive chinuch. Eventually, he used his experience to enter into grief recovery, become a specialist in the subject, and steer his life in the direction of his choice. Today, he smiles a whole lot more.…

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If I was found out... I would cease to exist" (feat. Velvel Lipskier) 1:17:47

5 years ago1:17:47

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Meet Rabbi Velvel Lipskier.In the latest episode of the Neshamos Podcast, Velvel opens up about being diagnosed and living with Manic Depression Bipolar Type 2 Disorder and traits of Borderline and Dependence personality Disorders.Velvel has also experienced the pain of Suicidal Ideation, but thank G-d he is here today and is here to share his story and help others.…

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"My Center is in My Soul" (feat. Freidel Levin) 56:29

5 years ago56:29

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Growing up in the foster care system, Freidel Levin of Mimulo Floral & Event Design always craved a "normal" life. She spent years believing she didn't deserve the things she needed. Eventually, she learned to connect with herself, and thereby connected with G-d. Hear her tell her story in her own words.…

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"A New Way To Live" (feat. Chani Lisbon) 47:11

5 years ago47:11

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For years, comedian Chani Lisbon used alcohol as a coping mechanism to help her survive daily living not feeling good enough and ashamed, not even knowing that she was actually a survivor of trauma, until she finally discovered a new way to appreciate and enjoy life without having to turn to the bottle.…

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Depression Doesn't Care How Successful You Are (feat. Moshe Hecht) 45:32

5 years ago45:32

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Growing up on Shlichus in Queens, NY, Moshe Hecht found himself straddling two worlds. At home, in Queens, he was "that Lubavitcher," while in the Chabad community, he never quite fit in. A high-energy student, he often found himself penalized for acting out in class. It wasn't until he hit his thirties that he first put names to feelings and behaviors that had been plaguing him all his life: ADHD, and depression. "I discovered I'd been suffering from depression my whole life," Moshe muses. "At times I'd be low on the scale of depression, and other times I'd be high." When he went through a particularly bad period of depression where he found himself unable to get out of bed in the morning, his wife did what he called "the best thing a spouse could do to someone in my situation" and kicked him out of the house. Having hit rock bottom, Moshe set out on a journey of healing and self-discovery. With the help of the right medication and qualified mental health professionals, Moshe began the laborious work of pulling himself out of depression. "Today, I can look at my depression from a distance," Moshe says. "It doesn't completely overtake me. I still get depressed at times, but I don't feel completely hopeless. I can visualize it from a distance and come up with a solution... My number one priority is dealing with my mental health."…

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Sharing Your Story Can Save a Life; It Saved Mine (feat. Yosef Eichenblatt) 1:05:29

5 years ago1:05:29

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When Yosef Eichenblatt got married and moved on shlichus to serve as a local Rabbi in Jerusalem, things seemed to work out perfectly--except they didnt. As a teen, Yosef had started drinking socially. What had been a "fun," recreational activity quickly became a crutch that Yosef relied on to help him get through his challenging responsibilities as a Rabbi. After seeking help, he was prescribed Valium and Ritalin, but the drinking continued. It wasn't until things came to a head and Yosef came to terms with the fact that he did, indeed, have an alcohol problem that he began the work of turning his life around. Today, Yosef joins Coach Moishe on the Neshamos podcast to share his story of finding serenity and embracing a new lifestyle as he celebrates 5 years of sobriety this week. “Everybody goes through stuff. We’re Chassidim, Jews, brother, sisters--so why not share?! Let's beak that culture of going through problems and keeping them under the rug.”…

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The Most Important Words I’ve Ever Heard (feat: Hershel Stevens) 46:11

5 years ago46:11