🎙️Episode 47: I don't think I can do this anymore

CRUMB Confessional

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 47

Title: I don't think I can do this anymore

Description:

It's a Saturday morning, around 8:19, and I'm leaving Luckman's Coffee after a failed first attempt at recording this. I’m just speaking from the heart now. I woke up and went down the rabbit hole of Twitter—headlines, clips, trending videos. It left me feeling sick, and I realized I'm trading true wisdom for noise. Today’s episode is me processing that in real time. No notes, no polish. Just confession.

I talk about:

• How checking Twitter first thing wrecked my spirit
• The soap opera nature of online “news”
• Social media algorithms as modern false prophets
• The danger of rationalizing daily doomscrolling
• How desensitization is normalizing evil
• My conviction to reject this cycle in order to follow Jesus more closely

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Leaving Luckman's with coffee and deleting the first recording

01:10 – Why I felt sick after 30 minutes on Twitter

03:45 – “The world is a soap opera… interrupted by the worst of the worst”

05:32 – The algorithm knows what tickles your ears

08:00 – Confessing a decade of rationalizing “staying informed”

10:55 – PTSD from headlines and the availability cascade

13:30 – “We’ve normalized evil by consuming it”

15:20 – Rejecting the distortion—even if it’s a pipe dream

17:40 – This is me, processing in real time

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

2 Timothy 4:3 – "For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine... to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear."

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I’ve been justifying my feed consumption for years, but no matter the source, it’s warping my soul and pulling me away from the truth of Jesus.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #47 — I’m trading the algorithm’s lies for real truth, even if it costs me my “awareness.”