I've graduated from therapy with Liz and am starting Animist Minister training today. What a great time it is!

Big pink bubbly wonderful shroom trip!

Why is this so difficult? TW: Emotional Abuse/Depression

This past week has been FULL of love and socializing. It was a real reset for me and I am happy to be exploring this next phase in my growth.

This episode is about having lunch with my mom and step dad and learning some very healing truths. They were also super supportive of my new diagnosis and everything I'm doing with my life right now.

These are my end of trip thoughts from February 15, 2023. Definitely my most significant insights and shift so far. This also happened to be the 10 year anniversary of Thomas and I meeting.

Thoughts on what it means to be me. Deep yet uplifting episode. I like where this is headed. Take care of yourself.

Please note any and all trigger warnings before listening to this. This was deep, heavy and sad. Please take care of yourself. Know that I am doing well.

Today's episode is about my relationship with disaster and my nervous system dysfunction that keeps me from being able to do the work I feel called to do. Thank you for listening.

Today I woke up in a mood after yet another rough night of intense dreams to then found out that not online is Russia actively attacking Ukraine but that Florida is passing a law to restrict students from accessing sex and gender information. Great day today all around. I also threw in a ted talk about climate change just to really get my blood boi…

Will I be able to do this?!

Today I talk about taking a break from service, wanting to get into product and noticing the limits I still have while exploring what is possible. I'm leaning towards writing articles, product recommendations and working on my cookbook.

Today's episode is about a breakthrough I'm having. I am noticing that the "break" I'm trying to take at the end of the day involving weed, sometimes alcohol, YouTube videos and snacks is really just setting me up for chaos the next day. I don't feel great, the house is a mess and I just start the cycle all over again to want another "break" again.…

This morning I attended another day of Weaving Well Through Illness, a series put on by my teacher Quynn Red Mountain for a small group of us that are living with different, often chronic, health conditions. In today's circle we talked about grief and resentment as well as loss, disappointment and sadness associated with our experiences. I felt ins…

Today's episode is mostly an overview of where I am at, my current goals and mindset and well as a bit of backstory on how I got here. A longer episode than usual, I just really wanted to voice some of the changes I am experiencing in order to feel a bit more grounded in my decisions.

Today I had the chance to try hypnotherapy for the first time. My facilitator was my new friend Kyle Ross and he led me through a deep dive into my subconscious where I relearned old lessons from a new perspective. Our goal was to explore what is holding me back from being my full self, speaking my mind and being the leader I truly want to be. In a…

10 years ago my body shut down for the first time. 4 years later it would shut down again leaving me disabled, but this time I really had no idea what was going on or what to do about it. I thought I could just keep pushing through. This is that story. TW - I talk a bit about mental illness and disordered eating in this episode.…

Just a down day.

Hello Humans! This episode is kind of all over the place, but it helped me process some of what I am thinking on this new moon. I'm kind of in transition between getting really excited about new ventures and connections while also being nervous about what will happen with old connections, mainly my family. I just want to stay motivated and feel goo…

Hello Humans! Rebecca here again. I am working on a "Starting Shadow Work" 4-week course and part of the curriculum will be finding a journaling option that works best for you. I haven't recorded an episode of Exposing Isolation for many months, but I always found them cathartic and would encourage others to give diary podcasting a try too if they …

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This week I talk about being on an SSRI, continuing to work on finding a new home, developing the systems to make Sapient Living a success and the latest Parts Work session with Thomas. Facilitated Awareness Session with Rebecca

This morning I met with a new therapist, this time one who is clearly trauma informed. It was a wholly new experience and I look forward to working more with her in the future. Also, Happy Inauguration Day!!

In today's episode I document what it feels like to be at the beginning of a depressive episode. It might be productive, but it isn't very pleasant. S.2 E.1 Tending Trauma

In today's episode I give an update on priorities, projects and just where I am at right now. I want to focus on my health, but I also need to start making money or at least help Thomas make more so that we can have a home of our own one day.

In this episode I talk a bit about what I am coming to learn to be a manic phase. I also update a bit about my new doctor and what went wrong when I went on a supplement that I didn't need. Episode Brought By - BeScentFree.com

Today I talk about meeting with my new naturopathic doctor for the first time and really loving it.

This is a pretty heavy, but also just informative episode about my struggle with suicidal ideation and how I have a new therapist who asks every session about it. In the past, it wasn't asked and I didn't tell people. Now I know that it is a common symptom of a few of my conditions. Episode Brought By - BeScentFree.com…

On today's episode I talk about meeting my new therapist and how I am feeling about all the changes afoot.

Until yesterday, Liz was my therapist. She went into labor really early, cutting off our sessions weeks before we expected. I talked to her every week for the past 16 months and she's really been my rock. We didn't get the chance to wrap anything up, nothing to keeping me going into the future. So, I'm left feeling grateful for her help, concerned …

For sake of science, I thought it was important to note how I am feeling some hours after waking up today. Still mentally better than usual, but physically I'm really starting to go through it. Delayed reaction is even weirder than immediately getting triggered. Sponsored by Tending Trauma and BeScentFree.com…

Today I am pleased with my stable mood. I had a filling replaced yesterday and while the results seem okay, the woman who installed the new one was very scented. On top of that they filling somehow didn't address my entire issue with the tooth. My optimism today is that even though I was exposed and stressed, I don't feel as bad today as I would ha…

Today I feel really good. Like REALLY good and there are a bunch of reasons why. In this episode I share some of my thoughts and generally just give an upbeat update which is super rare for me. Cheers! Sponsored by Tending Trauma and BeScentFree.com

Post-therapy pre-Thanksgiving musings.

This week I went to look at a house for sale and mostly just ended up learning what I don't want, but enjoyed the drive with Thomas. I don't think I did a very good job explaining what I am trying next, but that's just as well because I can't say I really know. Things aren't necessarily looking up but I am choosing to believe something will work.…

What else can I say?

I was up a lot in the night essentially learning more about myself and not really liking what I saw. Today I begin to get to the bottom of why I focus so much on the bad and can't seem to find the good that often. I know I can change my mindset once I identify what is happening that doesn't serve me. #Sponsor - Brought to You By the Tending Trauma …

In this episode I talk more about my current mental state and how I keep being triggered into "dissociative shutdowns", which in the episode I simply refer to as going unconscious for short amounts of time. This is possibly linked to a "freeze" style fear response, but could be something else. We are trying to keep me safe and protected! More about…

Today I am in a new mindset, a new perspective. I want to know what would happen if I put more energy into being my authentic self and less energy into finding my place in the existing systems available to me. It isn't always fun and rarely easy to be me and I think that avoiding doing so has been quite appealing up until now. I'm glad to have supp…

Today I am shutting down because I am safe. This is a common phenomenon for me and can be a good sign if the safety lasts, but I still down know why it happens exactly or I should say, I don't totally understand the science. I'll keep you posted. Brought to You By - BeScentFree.com and Thomas F. Webber Coaching…

On today's episode I discuss where the nation is at after Joe Biden and Kamala Harris' win on Saturday as well as update y'all on the current state of my mental health. Everything feels raw, but promising and that is a lot better than not. Brought to You By - BeScentFree.com and Thomas F. Webber Coaching…

On today's episode I discuss the start of my commitment to finding a sensible treatment plan for CPTSD. My husband Thomas is working alongside me on this one. He is working from a clinical perspective and I am working from a socio-cultural perspective. We both have CPTSD and struggle to be people because of it. Live Research - Parts One & Two…

I apologize for the poor audio quality in this episode but I think the message is lovely all the same! I am sitting in the last light of the full moon, early in the morning on this Halloween, releasing that which no longer serves me. Blessings to you!

So currently when I stop and think about my life I start to panic. Sometimes I would describe it as terror. Anyone else experiencing this? Today I go over my story a bit and confess where I'm at. [email protected]

I felt the need to record a follow up from last week's episode. Things are developing and I feel so much love, it's worth documenting!

Today was already such a doozy I couldn't not make an episode. Mostly I'm talking housing struggles and being real with my family about my pain. Thank you to the Youper App for getting me through my fear.

Yesterday after a bit of research I learned that I have nearly all the symptoms of PMDD! Not that it's good to have PMDD, I'm excited because it's an answer and something I can work to treat. It's a good day.

Here I go again being overly insightful while still not knowing what to do. The joys of mental and physical illness that has no answers and an insufficient support system. I feel like a brilliant cave hag with no power.

Hello Humans! This morning Thomas was generous with his time and facilitated a very long (100 min) parts work session for me so that I might reconnect with my exiled younger self, namely the 4 year old. It was one of the more transformative therapeutic experiences I've had thus far! To watch the full session - Parts Work by Thomas F. Webber | Inner…

In part one I discussed my story up until going to college. In this episode I talk about the beginning of college until now. I am documenting these hard truths to simply not have to hold onto them alone anymore. Also to acknowledge myself where no one else has seen my truth. Please consider supporting my work!Become a PatronMake a Donation…