“I Still Feel Rex Is Here” — Gilgo Killer's Wife, Asa Ellerup’s Grief and Denial, Analyzed by the FBI

Long Island Serial Killer | The Trial Of Rex Heuermann

“I Still Feel Rex Is Here” — Gilgo Killer's Wife, Asa Ellerup’s Grief and Denial, Analyzed by the FBI
In Segment 3, we enter the emotional core of the Gilgo Beach case. As Asa Ellerup walks through the remnants of her raided home, she says something haunting: “I still feel Rex is here.” It’s not just grief—it’s denial, memory, and psychological trauma colliding all at once.
Tony Brueski and former FBI behavioral expert Robin Dreeke examine what happens when someone’s entire identity is built around a man who may not have ever existed in the way she believed. Dreeke draws from deep behavioral analysis to explain Asa’s apparent inability to accept the allegations—even in the face of overwhelming evidence.
This segment also introduces another powerful voice: Victoria Heuermann, the daughter of Rex and Asa. Caught between the loving father who built her a dollhouse and the man now accused of being a serial killer, Victoria represents a generational split in how trauma is processed. She openly admits she feels torn—stating she both loves and hates her father.
We explore how denial, trauma bonding, and emotional survival play out across generations. Dreeke draws comparisons to Kerri Rawson, daughter of BTK killer Dennis Rader, and discusses how individuals come to terms—or refuse to—with the dark truths inside their families.
Through Asa’s refusal to ask questions and Victoria’s cautious acceptance of reality, we see the full spectrum of psychological responses in the wake of extreme betrayal. This isn’t just about the crimes. It’s about what happens when your past is rewritten in real time—and you're left to pick up the pieces.
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