🎙️ Episode 21: Split Churches, Sleds Up a Mountain, and a Sabbath That Won’t Sit Still

CRUMB Confessional

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 21

Title: Split Churches, Sleds Up a Mountain, and a Sabbath That Won’t Sit Still

Description:

It’s Sunday morning. I’m driving through Cincinnati from my parents’ house to Love City Church—alone, a little anxious, and carrying more than just the steering wheel.

This episode feels like a tangle of open threads:

Old churches. New systems.

Family tensions. Crumb delays.

And the exhausting war between build now vs wait until it’s ready.

I talk through:

• The tension of attending a church you used to belong to… but now feel weird walking into
• The complicated mix of Catholic roots, Protestant exploration, and being caught in-between
• My honest frustration about trying to launch CRUMB the right way when everyone wants it fast
• The guilt I feel for pausing things like the Daily Crumb podcast and the Crutherhood
• Why I don’t believe in “just start small” if the backend isn’t holy and excellent
• A word on ADHD, Sabbath rest, family golf, and baby snuggles
• And a gentle confession: it’s hard to slow down when your soul only knows speed

This episode is raw, rambling, honest. Not polished. Not tidy.

But sometimes the mess is the confession.

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Driving to Love City Church with an emotional fog

01:15 – Splitting time between Love City and Catholic roots: “It’s complicated”

03:10 – Feeling weird without Crystal, carrying kids’ routines and family expectations

04:30 – Launch pressure: Why CRUMB still doesn’t have wings

06:45 – “You wouldn’t launch a half-working iPhone…”

08:20 – Why I’ve paused posting in the Brotherhood and what I’m building behind the scenes

10:15 – The battle between conviction, perfection, and outside advice

12:00 – Sabbath rest vs. ADHD restlessness: skipping meds, slowing down

14:10 – Playing golf with my dad: nostalgia, resistance, and intentional family time

15:40 – Watching my daughter Olive fall in love with baby Hallie

16:30 – A final reminder: this isn’t the launch—it’s the labor before birth

📖 Scriptures Referenced or Implied:

• Ecclesiastes 3:1 – “There is a time for everything…”
• Hebrews 4:9–11 – “There remains a Sabbath-rest for the people of God…”
• Proverbs 16:3 – “Commit your work to the Lord…”
• Psalm 127:1 – “Unless the Lord builds the house…”
• Isaiah 30:15 – “In returning and rest you shall be saved…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

“You can’t launch a movement while hiding from your own tension. But you also can’t fake a launch when the wings aren’t built yet.”

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #21 — where church feels distant, launch feels stuck, and Sabbath becomes a test of trust. Let’s walk anyway.