🎙️Episode 40: I might be blocking my own blessings

CRUMB Confessional

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 40

Title: I might be blocking my own blessings

Description:

It’s early morning on June 16—Father’s Day—and I’m walking around my parents’ neighborhood before the whole house wakes up. We’re in town for four days before heading to Charleston for a kid-free trip. Today I go deep on the word prosper, tracing its definition, etymology, and biblical framing. I confess a deep-rooted fear of abundance and a lifelong resistance to material blessing—even when it might be from God. I process the possibility that I’ve idolized lack in the name of faithfulness and share a prayer that might mark a turning point.

I talk about:

• The Latin root of prosper and what it really means
• Five biblical truths about prosperity that go beyond money
• The concept of anti-prosperity legalism
• A ChatGPT prayer that led to my own declaration
• My fear that blessing will derail my mission
• The desire to steward wealth without worshiping it
• Wanting peace and provision without guilt

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Early morning reflection on Father’s Day at my parents’ house

02:14 – The word *prosper* catches my attention on a road sign

05:40 – Etymology of prosper: “to move forward in hope”

07:33 – Five biblical principles for understanding prosperity

13:45 – Wrestling with false humility and blocking God’s blessing

18:50 – “Anti-prosperity legalism” and the fear of abundance

23:20 – Reading the prayer of release and surrender

28:50 – Acknowledging past financial failures and dreams for Kingdom wealth

33:05 – Final reflection on receiving calm and provision from God

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

• Joshua 1:8 – “Then you will have good success”
• 3 John 1:2 – “That you may prosper in every way, just as your soul prospers”
• Psalm 1:1–3 – “In all that he does, he prospers”
• Romans 8:28 – “All things work together for good…”
• Philippians 3 – “Whatever gain I had, I counted as loss…”
• Deuteronomy 8:18 – “He gives you the ability to produce wealth”
• Proverbs 10:22 – “The blessing of the Lord brings wealth…”
• Psalm 84:11 – “No good thing does He withhold…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

To prosper in Christ is to flourish in obedience. Blocking God’s blessing out of fear isn’t faith—it’s control.

🙏 Closing Line:

If you want to build, I will not stop you anymore. Let’s go.