🎙️ Episode 42a: I learned trusting obedience by what I suffered

CRUMB Confessional

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 41a

Title: I learned trusting obedience by what I suffered

Description:

It's 5:30 AM on June 18. I woke up with more clarity and calm than I had last night—sleep really can enact a miracle. I reflect on Hebrews 5:7 from The Message and the idea that Jesus learned trusting obedience through suffering. I confess how suffering exposes the gaps in my love, my obedience, and my trust. I also update you on some backend tweaks I’m making to the Daily Crumb and why this podcast continues, even when it doesn’t make sense.

I talk about:

• Hebrews 5:7 and how Jesus learned obedience through suffering
• Why suffering is the path to trusting God
• The failure I felt yesterday in showing love
• My struggle with the recurring area of weakness God keeps surfacing
• Why Crumb is centered on truth, daily death, and eternity
• Tweaks I’m making to the DailyCrumb.com and the Beehive transition
• How I’m documenting this to show real-time obedience, not polished performance

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Nothing like a good sleep to enact a miracle”

02:40 – Hebrews 5:7 MSG: “He learned trusting obedience by what he suffered”

06:15 – The lie that life with God gets easier

10:30 – Daily death isn’t marketable, but it’s necessary

15:22 – “My standard is love—and yesterday, I failed”

21:18 – Why trust only grows where suffering demands it

26:55 – This podcast is a real-time war journal, not a teaching platform

32:40 – Update on Crumb site: moving from Squarespace to Beehive

38:50 – “If you aim at truth, daily death, and eternity…the rudder straightens”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

• Hebrews 5:7 – “He learned trusting obedience by what he suffered”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

You don’t learn to trust God when life is easy—you learn it when obedience costs something.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #41a — My life is not clean or neat, but I aim at truth, daily death, and eternity—and the rudder straightens.