When the heart pulls (and it doesn't make sense)

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You know that feeling when your heart is pulling you in a direction… and your mind is like, “Umm, what the actual fuck are you doing?”

That’s the space I’m in right now. The dance between fear and trust. Between the life I know and the unknown pull that keeps whispering, “this way.”

In today’s episode, I’m opening up about the kind of pull that doesn’t make logical sense, doesn’t add up on paper, and yet — something deeper knows. I share how this is the exact same pull I felt when I was a nurse, before I stepped into the work I do now. The curiosity. The resistance. The shaky-but-sure feeling that something bigger is moving through me.

If you’re in a moment of change, if your heart is whispering and your head is screaming, if you’re scared to follow the pull but scared not to… this episode is for you.

Let’s talk about the truth of it. The fear. The trust. And the courage it takes to say yes — even when you don’t have the full map.

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When the heart pulls (and it doesn't make sense)

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You know that feeling when your heart is pulling you in a direction… and your mind is like, “Umm, what the actual fuck are you doing?”

That’s the space I’m in right now. The dance between fear and trust. Between the life I know and the unknown pull that keeps whispering, “this way.”

If you’re in a moment of change, if your heart is whispering and your head is screaming, if you’re scared to follow the pull but scared not to… this episode is for you.

Let’s talk about the truth of it. The fear. The trust. And the courage it takes to say yes — even when you don’t have the full map.

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Kat & Steve - Our own wheels of life 28:57

3 days ago28:57

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Steve and I sit down and get real about where we’re currently at in life—what’s working, what’s not, and how we’re using the Wheel of Life to check in and recalibrate. Our wheels of life are awesome, but they're always changing. It’s about being honest with ourselves, having open conversations about what needs attention, and making small, steady shifts toward a life that feels good and grounded. We share: How we each use the Wheel of Life to get clarity on where we’re thriving and where we’re not The areas we’re currently focused on (yep, we’ve got imbalances too) Why we both think this tool is one of the most practical, helpful ways to live more consciously and on purpose How this practice helps us stay on the same page as a couple, without forcing it If you’ve been feeling off, stretched, or unsure where to put your energy right now, this is a conversation to tune into. It’s not fancy or complicated. It’s just real life, reflected back to you in a simple way that helps you move forward with more intention. Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - sign up now Free Wheel of Life Assessment - take the test now Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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Make peace with all the women you once were 20:20

10 days ago20:20

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There’s a version of you that came before this one. The one who didn’t listen to her intuition. Who stayed in relationships she knew weren’t right. Who kept her mouth shut to keep the peace. Who dimmed her light to make others comfortable. Who thought she had to be strong, unbothered, and bulletproof just to survive. That woman? She deserves your love. Not your shame. Not your judgment. Not your silence. She was doing her best with what she knew. With the patterns she hadn’t yet seen. With the pain she hadn’t yet named. With the wounds she carried like armour. In this week’s episode, I speak to the importance of honouring her—not because we want to stay in her story—but because we need to thank her for getting us this far. And then, show her a better way. It’s time to stop punishing the woman you used to be. It’s time to love her. Forgive her. And let her rest. She doesn’t need to run the show anymore. But she does need your compassion. Because without her, you wouldn’t be here. And the woman you’re becoming? She’s watching how you treat the woman you once were. This one’s a deep one. Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - sign up now Free Wheel of Life Assessment - take the test now Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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Kat & Steve - Micro-moments of disconnection 28:52

17 days ago28:52

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It’s not always the big ruptures that create distance in a relationship. Sometimes, it’s the tiny moments. The micro-misses. The everyday ways we unknowingly make our partner feel unseen, unimportant, or left out. In this episode, Steve and I talk about the slow burn of disconnection—what we call death by a thousand cuts —and how seemingly small behaviours can add up and quietly erode closeness over time. For Steve, it’s when we’re having a cuddle and the dogs jump in, and I start patting them instead. It might look harmless, but in that moment, he feels like something else just took priority. For me, it’s when I’m mid-sentence and he glances at his phone or checks his watch. It sends the message—without words—that what I’m saying doesn’t matter as much. We share how these moments land for us, what they actually mean underneath the surface, and how we’re learning to own our impact, not just our intention. This isn’t about getting it perfect. It’s about being conscious of the little ways we disconnect… so we can choose to reconnect, again and again. If you’ve ever felt brushed off, dismissed, or like you’re just not quite landing with your partner—this one will hit home. Big love, Kat & Steve x Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - sign up now Free Wheel of Life Assessment - take the test now Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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My wheel of life reality check 30:00

24 days ago30:00

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In this episode, I’m sharing a season of my life I’ve never forgotten—because it brought me to my knees. There was a time when my Wheel of Life was absolutely wrecked. I wasn’t taking care of my health. I had no grip on my finances. I was spiritually, emotionally, and physically burnt out—on autopilot, pretending everything was okay… until it wasn’t. Eventually, life caught up with me. I couldn’t pay rent. I was scraping coins together for groceries. And it hit a point where I had to do something I never thought I’d do—I called my brother and asked for money. That phone call cracked me open. It was humbling, embarrassing, and confronting. But what it also did was lead me back to something I’d forgotten about: the Wheel of Life. My dad reintroduced it to me not as some cheesy self-help tool—but as a mirror. To meet my life exactly where it was at. To stop pretending. To stop performing. And to take responsibility—not shame—for how out of alignment I’d become. This episode is real. And it’s a reminder that when life feels like it’s falling apart, sometimes it’s actually asking you to come back to what matters. Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - sign up now Free Wheel of Life Assessment - take the test now Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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Kat & Steve - The conversations you're not having 35:19

4 weeks ago35:19

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Is there something you want to bring up with your partner but are holding it back? This question has the power to crack things open. Not to break, but to deepen. In this episode, Steve and I explore why it can feel so hard to bring up the things that actually matter —the stuff that’s sitting in your heart, the niggle that keeps coming back, the truth you’ve softened or silenced to avoid tension. We talk about the very human reasons we hold back—fear of conflict, rejection, hurting someone we love, or rocking the boat when things feel “fine.” But the truth is that avoiding these conversations doesn’t keep the peace. It keeps the distance. If we want real closeness, if we want a relationship where we feel each other—not just coexist—it requires a shared agreement to go there. To bring it up. To listen. To not punish each other for being honest. That’s the kind of love we’re here for. We share what this has looked like for us—moments we’ve avoided things, moments we got it wrong, and how we’ve slowly built a relationship where these conversations are safe, even when they’re uncomfortable. This one is an invitation: To check in with yourself. To ask the question. And to consider—what’s the cost of not saying what’s true? Big love, Kat & Steve x Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - be the first to know here Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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When the heart pulls (and it doesn't make sense) 27:29

5 weeks ago27:29

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You know that feeling when your heart is pulling you in a direction… and your mind is like, “Umm, what the actual fuck are you doing?” That’s the space I’m in right now. The dance between fear and trust. Between the life I know and the unknown pull that keeps whispering, “this way.” In today’s episode, I’m opening up about the kind of pull that doesn’t make logical sense, doesn’t add up on paper, and yet — something deeper knows. I share how this is the exact same pull I felt when I was a nurse, before I stepped into the work I do now. The curiosity. The resistance. The shaky-but-sure feeling that something bigger is moving through me. If you’re in a moment of change, if your heart is whispering and your head is screaming, if you’re scared to follow the pull but scared not to… this episode is for you. Let’s talk about the truth of it. The fear. The trust. And the courage it takes to say yes — even when you don’t have the full map. Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - be the first to know here Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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Kat & Steve - Holding space for the one you love 42:13

6 weeks ago42:13

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In this episode, Steve and I sit down to share a conversation we’ve been having privately for a while now — about the importance of true support in a relationship, especially when one person is going through a season of deep inner change. Right now, Steve is in the thick of that kind of season. He’s been in deep contemplation about his life, his family, and what’s shaped him without even realising it. A huge part of that has been facing the generational impact of his family being murdered in Auschwitz. For so long, without even connecting the dots, he’s been carrying this invisible weight — the need to accumulate, achieve, control, and “secure” everything in his life as a way of trying to feel safe. But no matter how much he had… the safety never fully landed. And that’s what’s starting to unravel now. What we speak to in this episode is what it takes to hold space for each other when one of you is falling apart in the best possible way. Not fixing. Not rescuing. Not getting impatient or making it mean something about you . Just staying soft, curious, steady. Steve shares how much it’s meant to him to feel met in this space — to not be rushed, or judged, or told how to move through it. And I speak honestly about what it’s like on the other side — to stay grounded in love and let someone evolve in front of you without needing to shape the outcome. This one’s tender. Real. And a reminder that love doesn’t always look like doing something big — sometimes it’s in the quiet, consistent choice to just be there . Buy my book, Authentic - coming home to your true self - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me 1:1 - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - be the first to know here Sunday Meds - live event by the beach, June 22nd Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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The afternoon of life 27:43

7 weeks ago27:43

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In this episode, I’m talking about something that’s been landing deeply for me lately… the shift into midlife — and more importantly, the shift into living the life I’ve worked so bloody hard to create. Over the last 17 years, I’ve poured energy, time, tears, grit, therapy, growth, healing, coaching, and a whole lot of “let’s go again” into building a life that’s actually in good knick. My relationships are honest, my work is aligned, my body is cared for, my mind is steady(ish), and my heart is full. The wheel of life — that tool I teach, coach from, and reflect on often — is feeling juicy across the board. Not perfect, but solid. Lived in. Deepened. And now I’m asking myself… What is this chapter about? Carl Jung speaks of the “morning of life” and the “afternoon of life.” How the things that served us in the morning — chasing, striving, collecting — must be let go of in the afternoon to make room for new meaning. That’s what I feel unfolding now. The afternoon of life isn’t emptier, it’s just different. It’s more still. More honest. Less proving, more being. So today I’m riffing on that. On letting myself enjoy my life without guilt. On not needing to earn joy or rest or a Wednesday spent in the garden. On trusting that this slower, steadier pace is not a backslide — it’s the reward. It’s the good life, lived. 🎧 Tune in, reflect, and if it resonates, share it with someone who's also entering the afternoon of their life — or maybe just starting to live like they’ve finally arrived. Kat x Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now The Good Life - be the first to know here Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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Kat & Steve - The reality check we needed 27:41

8 weeks ago27:41

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Steve and I were out on a hike recently, one of those soul-clearing walks where the body moves and the heart starts to open. We asked each other a simple but big question: “If you died tomorrow, would there be anything you’d regret? Anything you wish you’d done, experienced, or seen?” It hit us both, deeper than we expected. And you know what surprised us? It wasn’t about all the things we hadn’t done yet. Not the trips we hadn’t taken, or the projects we hadn’t started, or some massive milestone we missed. It was this: we wish we had allowed ourselves to actually enjoy the life we already have—more. Like, properly soak it in. Let it land. Not rush through it or stress over what’s next or what still needs fixing… but actually be in it . It was such a wake-up call. Because we’ve worked hard to create a life we love. We’ve made big changes, taken risks, healed a lot. We’ve built something beautiful together—and yet, even with all of that, there’s still this pull toward the next thing, the improvement, the fixing, the striving. And in that striving, we realised: we’ve been skimming past the gold that’s already here. This conversation cracked us open. We spoke about how hard it is sometimes to actually let ourselves enjoy what we’ve created. How uncomfortable it can feel to pause and receive. Because there’s a part of us, like many of us, that still carries the old programming—“you’ve got to earn your joy,” “you’ve got to keep pushing,” “don’t get too comfortable.” But what if this— this right here—is already enough? What if joy isn’t something we have to chase or achieve, but something we’re allowed to feel now , exactly as things are? That question on the hike reminded us: we don’t want to get to the end of our lives having missed it. Missed the softness of the morning light, or the way our daughter laughs, or the quiet moments where everything’s okay and nothing needs to be fixed. So this episode is us going there. Raw, reflective, and real. We’re sharing the stuff that stirred in us, and what we’re choosing to do differently now—not later, now —so we can actually live the life we’ve got. We hope it gets you thinking. Maybe even helps you pause. Because it’s so easy to forget—but this moment? It’s the one we’ve got. Let’s not miss it. Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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What's your relationship with patience? 27:48

9 weeks ago27:48

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I’m in a season of patience right now. Not the soft, gentle kind that feels like a warm hug—but the gritty, uncomfortable kind that stretches you in all directions while whispering, “You asked for this.” Because I did. I asked for a soul level-up. I said yes to deeper alignment, more truth, more clarity. And now I’m in the thick of it. Not doing the work— being worked on. There’s a quietness to this chapter. A stillness. And to be honest? I don’t love it. I feel tired. Lethargic. Foggy. Like I’m in some kind of energetic surgery and all I can do is lay still and let the reshaping happen. Meanwhile, my mind is doing cartwheels. “Why is this taking so long?” “Am I going backwards?” “Shouldn’t I be more productive?” “How long will this take?” And yet… the part of me that knows —the one not caught up in fear or timeline obsession—keeps reminding me: This is the work. This, right here. The waiting. The resting. The allowing. Letting go of needing to understand it all while I’m still inside it. So if you’re here too—suspended between who you’ve been and who you’re becoming— I see you. This space is sacred, even if it feels messy and slow. Patience isn’t passive. It’s powerful. And sometimes, the biggest transformation doesn’t come from what we do —but from what we’re willing to let be done to us. So I’m here. In it. Not rushing. Not resisting (well, trying not to). Just holding myself gently in the becoming. Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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The Dance Between Faith & Action 28:52

10 weeks ago28:52

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I found something the other day—a letter buried in the pages of my 2020 journal. A letter from my future self —2023 Kat—written to 2020 Kat. And reading it now, with the perspective I have today, it hit me in a way I didn’t expect. At the time, I was deep in my own push-and-pull with faith and action. Some days, I’d sit back and wait for the universe to do its thing , expecting clarity to just arrive —for the right opportunities, ideas, and next steps to be delivered to me, neatly wrapped with a bow. Other days, I’d swing hard in the other direction— hustling, grinding, trying to do it all on my own , convinced that if I didn’t keep moving, everything would fall apart. And the letter? It reflected exactly what I needed to hear back then. My future self didn’t say, “Kat, just trust, the universe has got you.” She also didn’t say, “Kat, work harder, you’re not doing enough.” She said, “Keep going. Keep showing up. Keep making space for what’s unseen, and also take the next best step. Don’t force. Don’t wait. Move in alignment, and trust that what’s meant for you will meet you along the way.” And that’s it, isn’t it? That’s the dance. We don’t just sit back and hope. And we don’t just push until we break. We trust and we move. We listen and we act. You plant the seed, but you also water it. You set the intention, but you also take the step. You trust that life is guiding you, but you also meet it halfway. So, if you’re in that place right now— either waiting too much or pushing too hard —I want you to ask yourself: Where am I waiting when I should be moving? Where am I forcing when I should be trusting? Where am I out of balance in this dance? Because the magic, the alignment, the things you couldn’t have orchestrated if you tried —they don’t just show up because you wish for them. They meet you on the path. Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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The work never ends 42:28

11 weeks ago42:28

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There’s something incredibly powerful about choosing yourself—not from fear, not from old wounds, but from deep, grounded self-worth. And today’s guest, KG, embodies that in every way. If you’ve read Authentic: Coming Home to Your True Self , you’ll remember KG’s story—where she was, what she was navigating, and the work we did together to help her see her patterns, her ego, and what was running the show beneath the surface. Back then, she was in a relationship, doing the deep work of untangling old beliefs about her worth, love, and what she thought she had to do to be chosen. Now? She’s in a completely different chapter—single, standing fully in her worth, and having walked away from that relationship not because of drama, not because of a breaking point, but because she knew in her bones it was time. In this episode, KG shares what it was like to navigate the ending of that relationship with grace, respect, and clarity—without falling into old patterns of staying too long, doubting herself, or making herself smaller. We talk about what it really takes to exit something not because you’re running, but because you’re rooted in knowing what serves you. She didn’t repeat her old cycles. She didn’t let her ego convince her to stay out of fear, guilt, or obligation. Instead, she leaned into everything we worked through—noticing the beliefs, challenging the narratives, and leading herself from truth rather than survival. This is the kind of conversation that reminds us what’s possible when we do the real work—when we stop settling, when we stop making ourselves wrong for wanting more, and when we stand in the deep knowing that our worth isn’t up for debate. KG’s story is one of courage, self-respect, and radical ownership—and I can’t wait for you to hear it. Let’s dive in. Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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From head to heart 26:21

12 weeks ago26:21

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Lately, my head and my chest have been in a full-blown tug-of-war. So much for my word of the year— unwavered . If anything, my ego’s been working overtime to shake me. Every morning, before I even opened my eyes properly, I’d wake up with a pit in my stomach, my chest tight with anxiety. My body was telling me something, but instead of listening, I got annoyed. Frustrated. Tried to push it away, pretend it wasn’t there. Classic move, right? But one night before bed, I remembered—this is the work. Not running from it. Not suppressing it. Turning toward it. So I pulled out my journal, wrote it all down, gave my angst the mic, and let it have its say. Then, I closed my journal, took a deep breath, and fell asleep. The next morning? Space. Ease. Like my body had exhaled a sigh of relief. And in that clarity, I saw what I’d been missing—I hadn’t been checking in with my heart . So I asked it. And the first thing my heart said? I want to sleep under the stars. Ha—nothing to do with the stress, the anxiety, the overthinking. Just a deep, simple truth. A reminder of something I’d been circling for a year—this hiking trip in Western Australia that I kept almost booking. In that moment, I knew. No more um-ing and ah-ing. No more waiting. My heart had spoken. I booked the trip. Since then, I’ve been making space again. Asking my heart to guide me. To remind me how I do life—not by pushing, forcing, or keeping up with some illusion of success, but by trusting what I already know . And just like that, I can breathe again. This episode is for you if you’ve been stuck in your head, overthinking, gripping too tightly. If you’ve been feeling the weight of it all and have forgotten to check in with you . Let’s talk about what happens when we shift from head to heart. Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now Write into us - let us know what you want to hear www.katjohn.com.au Support the show…

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At fifty she finally started to live 43:59

13 weeks ago43:59

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Podcast Episode: Michelle’s Journey – From Fear to Freedom There’s a moment in life where you realize—you’re either going to keep living the same story, or you’re going to change it. Michelle, who you might remember as Jacqui from my book, was stuck in a life that wasn’t hers. She was scared of life, scared of what would happen if she actually listened to what she wanted and scared of what would happen if she never listened to callings within. She knew deep down what she wanted to do, but she kept pushing it aside. She put up with behaviour that didn’t serve her, stayed in a marriage that was well and truly over, and ignored the quiet voice inside her that kept whispering, there’s more for you. And then? She made room. She gave herself the space to hear her own heart. To ask herself, What do I actually want? And to finally stop waiting for permission to live on her terms. Now? She’s in a new relationship, working in a way that feels good for her , and has traveled near and far—hiking, road-tripping, saying yes to life in a way she never had before. And the wildest part? This all started in her fifties. This conversation is for anyone who feels stuck, scared, or like it’s “too late” to change. Michelle’s story is proof that it’s never too late to start living for you . That when you clear the space, when you stop filling your life with things that don’t serve you, what’s actually meant for you can finally find its way in. If you’ve been waiting for a sign— this is it. Buy my book - AUS , EUR , USA Coach with me - Book a 20-minute call now Write into us - let us know what you want to hear Support the show…

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From hyper achiever to being at ease 1:00:01

14 weeks ago1:00:01