Dee Jordy: coming to know the one who heals us from inside the darkest places

Whit's End: Real People, Hard Questions

Dee Jordy is a hometown hero of mine! As a friend here in La Grange, Dee is one of those dear souls who has demonstrated a raw, genuine, hungry faith. If you know Dee, you’ve likely experienced how deeply she loves the Lord, that He has redeemed her life in unbelievable ways and she never tires from sharing about that. Dee is married to her husband Adam and together they have 4 kids.

As a cardiovascular sonographer, a mentor teacher, a children’s volunteer at church, and a caretaker for her mom, Dee has more than a full load. Thankfully she sits down with me today to tell her story. Dee is such an expressive person that you might even hear her hand gestures as she taps the table throughout our conversation…regardless, I pray you are as deeply blessed by her story as I have been.

*Before we get started, I do want to include a disclaimer that this episode includes raw details relating to abuse, suicide, and abortion and may be inappropriate or disturbing for some listeners.*

Quotes:

“I think for people maybe who have walked in faith for a large part of their life it can look like people who don’t have that get to kind of live free and clear without that stuff before, right, without all these rules that religion imposes but I don’t think that that’s what faith looks like. I feel like in these times when it looked like I was living free I was so afraid, and it was so scary.”

“I was an angry, probably very scary person to be around a lot. I wasn’t physically abusive but I was harsh, ya know and afraid and broken and did not know the Lord at all and had zero peace and all of my worth was tied up in the relationships in my family, and I feel like I did a lot of damage to my relationship with our girls.”

“One day I remember sitting and just being like, alright, Lord, if you’re real, and if all this is legit, and you seriously expect me to believe all of this, and buy into any of this and this is real, I’m open. Show me. I’m listening.”

“[These relationships] have been such a well of hope to be able to be immature in my faith and walk with ladies who had been doing it for longer or could do it with a purer heart that was more all in.”

“I was still working in my own brain and in my own strength and trying to figure out if this faith was legit and if I was going to go down this path. I was in Romans, and it says, ‘I’m speaking to you in human terms because of your natural limitations’ and it was like God was like, ‘Hey Dee, your brain could not possibly hold it all. I’m telling you this as simply as I can and I’m showing it to you and you’re just going to have to take what I can give you and take it and accept that you’re not going to know everything, and you’re just going to have to have faith.’”

“I love the moment by moment, very gradual nature of your story. And I think it’s one of the things that makes it so relatable.”

“I can see that the Lord would have used that life to bring life.”

“The Lord can use every single experience I’ve been through to make somebody feel safer.”

“Shining that light of Jesus into those dark places and being like - man, it really doesn’t matter where you’ve been or what you’ve done.”

“All of it is still being funneled toward God, even all of the ugly, which we think we only can bring our praise and our worship, but God He wants all the rest of it.”

“It’s impossible to do that without that light shining on that. You can’t fix your thinking from inside the broken thinking without the Lord in there with you and literally nobody else can stand in there with you. Counselors are great, friends are great, but nobody can be with you in those moments of struggle like the Lord.”

Verse

Romans 6:19